Pastor Tim Romero
Genesis 32:30–32 (ESV): "30 So Jacob called the name of the place Peniel, saying, "For I have seen God face to face, and yet my life has been delivered." 31 The sun rose upon him as he passed Penuel, limping because of his hip. 32 Therefore to this day the people of Israel do not eat the sinew of the thigh that is on the hip socket, because he touched the socket of Jacob's hip on the sinew of the thigh."
Deep pain is often the catalyst that causes us to press into God. He allows it to break us so we can become usable. We might walk with a limp the rest of our lives but if it means we are walking closer to God then it was all worth it.
As Jacob continued his journey back to the land of his kindred he begins to fear how Esau will treat him. He is going to be accountable for his actions toward his brother. Still up to his old tricks Jacob tries to appease his brother by sending him great gifts ahead of his meeting. He then separates his camps and prays to God for mercy and deliverance. That evening Jacob took his wives and children across the river Jabbok and was left all alone on the other side. It was there that he was met by the God-man Jesus. Jacob must now come face to face with his sin. The deceit, lies and cons are all coming out and yet Jacob is still wrestling with God trying to justify his actions. At dawn Jesus has had enough so He touched Jacobs hip and put it out of socket. It would serve as a reminder to Jacob the rest of his life to fess up to his sin. As hard as Jacob was he would not let go of God until he was blessed. So God blessed him but not until he was broken.
So often we depart God with no blessing because we aren't willing to wrestle in prayer. Its in our greatest moments of pain we should find ourselves in the most desperate mode of prayer seeking God for help. However we must be willing to be broken if we want to be blessed. You might walk with a limp the rest of your life but it will be well worth it. Don't hold on to your sin and don't give up on God. Go to Him and He will work everything out for your good.
Father we thank You for Your incredible patience and love for us. We thank You for addressing our sin and changing our hearts. Do whatever is necessary in our lives to bring us to a place of brokenness. We don't want to go through the motions Lord, we want to be in deep intimate relationship with You. Move us, guide us, protect us from complacency and comprise. We give You our hearts and lives. We are all Yours in Jesus name we pray, amen.